good times mixed with a little frustrations

Things in California have been interesting to say the least. I feel like this is how it is to truly live; to do what your passionate about and hold nothing back. Not to say that things are perfect here by any means. They have just been different. We have had some cool adventures to say the least. It is absolutely gorgeous out here. There are times that I have to tell myself that this is real. It is crazy how different than any other experience that I have had.

One weekend, we went on a bike trip to Point Reyes. On the way there, tho, there was an accident ahead of us involving a turned over milk truck. So, we actually ended up not being able to go to our destination... that is for a couple of days. SO, we ended just exploring the coast a bit. it was pretty epic. Even though we did kind of get in trouble because we did a little bit of trespassing... lol! oops! We then went out for appetizers and drinks. we had some good times there. We then went to a cove and had a bonfire. It was stinking awesome. The waves were crashing all around us and the stars were out. It was a wonderful experience. It was a good time to really get to know the others and have h-2-h's. I remembered talking about how campfires are a good place to get to know each other because you don't have to have that added awkwardness of looking people in the eye. I thought that that was a really interesting point. It was such a great night. The next day we went biking... well, not so much biking as hiking carrying a bike most of the way. We were up to our knees in mud. It was pretty crazy. And I almost got attacked by a cow. That was pretty funny! That weekend was pretty epic all together.

Camp has been pretty good. I remembered why I love camp so much. The first week was pretty rough though. It wasn't so much trying to figure out what was going on as it was dealing with kids who really could care less about what you were saying. They were all "too cool for school". After this week I wasnt really sure what to expect. The next week that I had with kids was COMPLETELY the opposite. The kids were AMAZING. I enjoyed it tremendously. The kids for some reason really liked me. Everywhere I went I heard "Hey Turtle!!!" It was so cute. Some girls who were not even in my group would come up to me and hug me. It was awesome. The next week with kids was also pretty great. I really am starting to get a lot more confidence in what I am doing and how everything is going.

Frustrations come and go in this job. Learning to love people is something that I am working on. I feel like everyone has different experiences that have shaped them differently and it is really hard to comprehend that and make it OK. I have been struggling a lot with who the Lord is and what role he has in my life. I feel like it is the same struggle over and over. I have a hard time with consistency. I really want to be at a place in my life where I have complete faith that the Lord will provide, and that He loves.