what's next?

Life has been pretty crazy lately! It has come to my attention that I should start a blog. I have never really thought about it until now. I have learned so much in the past few months and thought I'd share it with anyone who wants to hear.

I graduated in May from college and nothing has gone the way that I wanted it to since then. This whole "growing up" thing has not been the most enjoyable experience. Definitely nothing like I imagined. I always thought that things would just fall into place somehow... No such luck! I am a worrier by nature so my last semester in college is when I started freaking out about what I was to do next. I like to plan my life so far ahead, so when I had no idea what was going to happen, I was perplexed. After evaluating things I came to the conclusion that "I have no flippin idea". I thought that I would keep my options open so I applied for a job at Camp Eagle. I have done a lot of work in the camping field and I really enjoy it. It ended up working out to work there as a summer staff. It was such a great summer. I love camp and everything that goes along with it. I felt that I learned a lot of little things last summer like how to love people deeply no matter who they are or where they come from.

Once again at the conclusion of the summer, I had no idea what was going to happen next. I was set on doing a 9 month program at Camp Eagle, but things didn't really work out there, so I just went to my parents house to try to figure things out. I felt like my life was at a stand-still. Things were really starting to close in and I was desperate. I had applied to so many different jobs with no luck. I was about to throw in the towell and became a professional student. But the thought of taking another test and slaving over more papers had no appeal to me whatsoever.

I was broswing facebook one day and found an ad for a nanny job in Colorado Springs. I had lived there before for a semester and absolutely fell in love with it and everything that it stood for. So, I inquired about the job. It turned out that the family was a very nice christian family. It all seemed to fall into place. I even found a house and a roommate to live with. Things seemed to be looking up. I was very nervous about moving and starting over in a town that I hardly knew anybody and had no idea what to expect. It was a pretty difficult move. The first day that I got there, I knew that something was not right. I wanted it to work so bad, though. I LOVE colorado! I started my job. I really enjoyed it. It was really laid back and chill, and the kids were GREAT! I really liked getting to know the family. I just wasn't sure that this was what I wanted to do with my life. I started researching other things in colorado springs and the area where I lived. I came across a job in the psychology field, which is what I got a degree in. I decided to exlore this job more to see if it would work for me. I figured since I spent so much time in this field in college, I needed to see what it had to offer. I took the job. It was HORRIBLE! I didn't really enjoy anything about it. I did realize that it wasn't something that I wanted to pursue for a career.

The whole time in Colorado I felt that it wasn't right and that my place was at camp. I disregarded it because I felt that that part of my life was done with and I needed to live in the "real world" for a while. HA! I def realized that it is more important to do what you love and use your calling in life for good instead of trying to live up to this unrealistic expectation that the world puts in your head. Screw what that world thinks!! I am doing what I want. Life is too short to try to live up to unrealistic expectations that are BOGUS anyway!! So, after realizing all of this I started to pursue camp jobs. I applied for this one job and they actually called me back the next day. Long story short, I got the job and am moving to California in about a week and a half. It is a dream job, and I am so excited to get there and start working. I have no idea what is going to happen and how it is going to happen, but I do know that this is something that I am going to love and I am going to put everything that I am into it to be the best that I can.

I know that this is lengthy, but this is where I am at now :)